melewati semesta...tiada aku dengar

Satu kata bertulis cinta

Telah merasuki ku

Tak berwujud tak tersentuh hanya ku rasa

Dan jika wujud nya menjelma

Pada sebentuk hati

Bukankah itu amanah dari yang kuasa

Menjaganya.. menjaganya..

Wahai insan yang di sana

Mungkin saja ini kau dengar

Melewati semesta ini

Aku sampaikan

Begitu ingin berbagi batin

Mendengarkan hasrat di jiwa

Oh Tuhan pertemukan aku

Sebelum

hatinya

beku

-Randy Pangalila

Lewat Semesta

In love love loves with this song. petah nahin kyun. haha! now im having a fetish forindon songs. like totally! over hindi songs! mujhe khudi yakeen nahin aata. aniwaes, mujhe lagta hain, this song is very SWEET. plus randy himself. haha! soooo cute. and his voice! like afgans, the voice that makes gerls melt in their heart and weak in their knees.

the meaning of this song....hmmm... im not really sure of. but according to my own interpretations, it depicts my current situation. sebentuk hati yang lagi mencari. belum wujud kali yaaa...dan mungkin buat gue sich, suara yg melewati semsta itu masih belumbisa gue dengarin. haiz...moga aja cepat dipertemukan yaaa...insyallah. amin.

khudakhafiz

Ampuniku Ya Allah

AFGAN--PadaMu Kubersujud

Ku menatap dalam gelap

tiada yang bisa kulihat

selain hanya nama-Mu,

ya allah

Esok ataukah nanti,

ampuni semua salahku

lindungi aku dari segala fitnah

Kau tempatku meminta,

kau beriku bahagia

jadikan aku selamanya

hambamu yang selalu bertaqwa

Ampuniku ya Allah,

yang sering melupakanmu

saat kau limpahkan karuniamu

dalam sunyi aku bersujud

Di Ramadhan yang mulia ini, aku insaf akan kehinaan ku.

Ya Allah, sesungguhnya aku tidak pernah bersyukur dengan pemberian mu

Tapi jangan lah engkau mengabaikan ku

Berkatilah masaku

Permudahkan lah perjuangan ku

Insya allah aku ingin menemui Ramadhan yang seterusnya

Di mana aku akan bisa bersujud kepada mu dengan penuh keinsafan.

khudakhafiz.

AKULAH SANG PENGHIBUR

people make meaningful songs, songs that give life to others who hear it. i wish to relive my life. but why should i be shy? bukankah ku pernah melihat bintang senyum, menghisai sang malam.

aur isi kehte hai zindegi. zindegi migzara...DIL!

setiap perkataan yang menjatuhkan

tak lagi ku dengar dengan sungguh

juga tutur kata yang mencela tak lagi kucerna di dalam jiwa

aku bukan seorang yang mengerti tentang

kelihaian membaca hatiku hanya pemimpi kecil yang berangan tuk merubah nasibnya

oh bukankah ku pernah melihat bintang senyum

menghiasi sang malam

yang berkilau bagai permata

menghibur yg lelah jiwanya...

yg sedih hatinya...

ku gerak kan langkah kaki dimana cinta akan bertumbuh

ku layangkan jauh mata memandang

tuk melanjutkan mimpi yang terputus

masih kucoba..

mengejar rinduku meski peluh membasahi tanah letih,

penat tak menghalangiku tuk temukan bahagia

oh bukankah ku pernah melihat bintang

senyum menghiasi sang malam

yang berkilau bagai permata

menghibur yg lelah jiwanya

yg sedih hatinya

oh bukankah hidup ada perhentian

tak harus kencang terus berlari

kuhela kan nafas panjang

tuk siap berlari kembali

bagai bintang yang bersinar menghibur yang lelah jiwanya,

bagai bintang yang berpijar menghibur yang sedih hatinya

-PADI (SANG PENGHIBUR)

khudakhafiz

main hoon bechara

sometimes, u have certain dreams or desires tt u know u can never make to come true. probably due to your self principles, physical restrictions, mobility factors or cultural stereotypes, religious obligations etc. so when people say "reach for your dreams," i'd choose to laugh it off.

that is something i've learned from my life. i am an average girl with big dreams. mostly too big for girls, like me that i have to live with denying my dreams myself. told u im a superb actress!
if ever people ask me wat are my dreams and wat i'd like to be in life? im sorry folks, do not expect me to answer tt with an honest answer. as honest as i may appear to sound, it'd still be a big lie. im a hell of an actress. try me...

but just off e record, i'd like to give myself a chance to express myself here. doesnt matter its not gona make any difference coz no one reads this anyway. why would anyone bother. so hear this, i dream of becoming a celebrity star. from an actress i'd like to move on to singing. im serious. its all i have ever wanted in my life, as in seriously.

so why dont i try to pursue it? why have i never given a chance for myself to reach out for my dreams? hahaha!
to put it simply, because im a muslim.
i have no regrets with being a muslim. im proud to be one. but my parents use that as an excuse. which i dont approve of. i do not think being a muslim limits me of my rights to fulfill my dreams. in fact it is the opposite. probably i should blame it on my parents' orthodox mindset.

khudakhafiz.

I feel like my parents think im a burden to them. they just want to get rid of the boon their carrying. One mistake from me and they make it all blown up and blame it on me. she noes wat im getting myself into isnt going to work out for me and yet she just wants to shoo me off so that i wont burden her anymore. she pretends tt it is e best thing for me and shows me her support but its all fake. the truth is, if i get myself into this mess, she wont be responsible for me anymore. she can pay for didi this and that. but for me, everything is just pushed over. I wish u realize ma!

I feel like screaming out all tt is inside me. nobody noes wat im going thru. its just a facade i put on everywhere i go to everyone i face. i think i ve mastered this art of acting that im beginning to even fool myself. i feel so screwed inside but i have no one to turn to....

Allah, sesungguh nya kepada mu aku berserah. jangan lah kau uji hamba mu yang lemah ini dgn dugaan yang tidak termampu aku tempuhi. tunjukkan lah kasih sayang mu padaku ya Allah, di saat aku merasakan kehilangan dan kehausan kasih sayang daripd mereka yang dekat dgnku. kerana akhirnya, aku hanya membutukan kasih sayangmu untuk meneruskan kehidupan ini.

mere khuda

my sinetron has ENDED!!! haiz, my days will be so bored without a dose of nay and dude. tapi nasib baik ending they got back together. but the hell they only showed a few seconds of the reunion at their marriage when nay looked all so beautiful.
I hope tt utube guy starts to upload Intan soon!!! i really wanna watch tt lah. or maybe rcti will make another good sinetron soon.

these days i ve been feeling happier and lighter. Praying really helps to balance your emotions. I really feel blessed that Allah has showered me with his blessings. alhamdulillah. finally got offer for teaching degree but im still praying for my appeal to ntu or nus to be successful. insyallah. if its not, i ll still be grateful for wateva allah has given me and I believe wat he has intended for me wld be the best for me. Allahuakhbar. I really hope tt my iman strengthens day to day. I really want to be a changed person. Alhamdulillah, now im beginning to feel a lot better abt wearing the hijab. Allah, pls continue to guide me, and pls do not let me stray even for a bit from whichever path that has been made by you and showed by Prophet Muhammad SAW. Ameen.


khudakhafiz.

khilaf

Aku nggak bakalan mahu menyerah. walau seberat apa pun dugaan yang kau beri ya Tuhan, aku pohon agar kau sisipkan bersamanya segenggam kesabaran dan secebis keikhlasan. Aku percaya, di sebalik semua kesusahan dan kekecewaan yang aku alami di saat ini, pasti ada hikmahnya karna sesungguhnya Engkau tidak pernah mempunyai maksud untuk menghukum manusia. Engkau maha pengampun dan maha penyayang, aku pohon dengan setiap titik darah ku, agar kau mengampunkan segala dosa ku dan menerima taubat ku yang masih kurang sempurna ini. Tunjukkan lah hidayahmu dan sayangilah aku sepertimana Engkau menyayangi para Nabi dan wali mu. Aku merasa tidak berdaya di saat ini dan ini membuat kan aku sadar betapa kerdil dan lemah nya aku. Selama ini, Engkau melindungi aku tetapi aku merasa megah dan berkuasa. Aku lalai dengan segala nikmat yang kau beri. Tapi kali ini kau telah membuka kan mataku. Dengan ucapan Kun Fa Ya Kun, kau bisa mengubah nasib ku. Betapa aku tidak berdaya. Ya Allah, berilah aku semangat untuk meneruskan perjuangan ku. tetapkan lah iman ku, dan janganlah engkau menutupkan setiap pintu nikmat buat ku. Kasihanilah aku yang lemah ini Ya Allah. Kabulkan lah doa doa ku dan berilah aku petunjuk mu supaya aku tidak lagi leka dalam kesombongan dan ketaksuban. Amin.

khudakhafiz.